I thought that I was gonna die before the finals started a week ago. And it turns out...I am still alive and breathing the fresh air coming through the window. Sometimes it's easy to say the word "die", and I have been saying it so many times since I started vet school, so I start to forget that I used to fear death, when I was 13. The thought of not knowing what is going to happen after wards, not knowing what new movies are coming out...not knowing what kind of fun my friends are gonna have...the fear of unknowns...
During our finals, one of our classmate's Fiancé passed away unexpectedly. So unexpect that I have to call my other classmate to confirm that it wasn't a practical joke, or a mistake of some kind...I am still in the shock stage of receiving the news, because this person actually sat next to me every other day (because he is a grad student, and taking one same class with us)...Now think hard, he is no longer with us, just like ... "poof"...disappeared...Life is strange, one minute you are talking to them and the next thing you heard is that he is no longer in your world...I think because we are so young, we never thought the "true death" is
this close. Beside the pass away of my grandparents, this is the 2nd time that someone I really know has gone. The other one is my boss from undergrad. She moved to another state and later on was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer metastisized to Brain, or vice versa...I found her news through a blog that put up by her beloved husband...
Sigh...I am not good at express myself, which is why I started this blog. But I can't really say anything on this matter any more. I am going to his funeral tomorrow, and I hope the best for his finance-my classmate. She is one tough woman. she decide to come back to school after the break, which, lots of people applause for that...I personally don't have a extensive relationship with another men, so I don't understand the toughness to overcome a death of the love ones...But I hope the best for her, and I firmly believe that my whole class and faculty and staff will stand behind her to support her morally.
I hate to end today's entry with such a depressing mood, but I think Daniel deserve a good ending, R.I.P.-Daniel Resnick
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